ADZ

 We all have friends. Friends who you hang out with. Friends who get into trouble with you. Friends who are there with you when you are happy. But do you have a friend who makes you feel very special, someone whom you can share all your darkest secrets with?

I do.

 The funny thing is, I never thought I’d be friends with him. AT ALL. The earliest memory of him was in 2011. I was being a busybody, visiting each class instead of studying. Then I heard someone calling my name. “Ash!” I was surprised to see him. He looked like what I call a gangster. Honestly speaking, he scared me. He wanted me to have a look at his story. He was soft-spoken, which took me aback. It was about Nazis and war and that mushy thing called ‘romance’. It was nice.

 And just like that, we clicked. I don’t remember how we got close, but Alhamdulillah, I’m glad we did. He was with me through the ups and downs of my school life. He was the reason I cried. He was the reason I laughed. We have loads of things in common; we’re both the eldest, we have similar names. He’s one of the kindest people I’ve ever met, he’s down-to-earth, and he’s wonderful. He is my confidant, my advisor, my John Watson, my shoulder to cry on whenever I’m down in the dumps. I would do anything for him, and he’d do the same for me.

He’s my best friend. And he is the best thing that has ever come into my life.

This year's present: a sucky-but-from-the-heart painting.

 To Ashraaf Danial Zakaria, if you’re reading this, I just want you to know that you are one of my closest friends. I consider you part of my family already. You will always be my best friend. I hope it’ll last forever (I’ll make sure of that.) I'm sorry if I have ever hurt your feelings. And I didn't buy you anything. :( But hey, the painting is sentimental. :) I hope you cry reading this, hahaha; it’s very hard to put this into words. And always remember that I have your back as well. I wish you all the best in life.

Ash and Ash. (I'm obviously the hotter Ash.) (The one at the left.)

Rachel Crow and the Disney Dilemma

Have you people heard of Rachel Crow? She was in X Factor USA (Wait, have you actually heard of X Factor USA?) Well, she's 13 and she has an awesome voice. :)
And she got kicked out of the show.

It pretty much caused a ruckus last week, when America (And other like me who couldn't watch it live) saw her breaking down onstage after the results came out. And so did Nicole whatshername (Sorry, I could never spell her name right.), because she was the cause of Rachel's downfall. Then it turns out it was actually Paula Abdul's fault. It's so complex. :D

The girl with awesome voice, Ms. Rachel Crow~

Oh well, back to topic. Rumours were spreading 'round that Disney, upon hearing of Crow's elimination, snatched the chance of getting her into the Disney bandwagon. If she accepts, then she'll be up there with the alumnis, (Like Jonas Brothers, Miley Cyrus, Demi Lovato) guiding her, probably.

But there's the problem. You guys heard of the controversies these Disney stars have, right? Miley Cyrus's problems with wanting to show her maturity in the most disgusting way ever, and dont get me started on Lindsay Lohan's prob. I'm not saying Disney's to blame for this, but by now Disney has a bad reputation of turning sweet lil boys and girls into people who have no shame. I just don't wanna this girl to become like them too.

Well, if she takes the offer, I'm happy for her. Just as long as she doesn't turn into celebrity whores. :)

Should I Exist?

Recently, I have been down in the dumps, feeling guilty of leaving a meeting of friends, planned just to meet me before I go back to boarding school, way too early. I felt sad and paranoid, thinking that someone out there hates me. Since then, whenever I talk or do stuff with them, I feel more left out, ignored, feeling that I shouldn't not be there. I spent all my time, until now, with this one question stuck in my head:

Would it be better if I never existed?

I'm sure someone out there feels the same way too. So, think of it this way. Without me in this world, there would be less fights between my siblings, nor disturbances in the classes. There would be one less person to hate for my friends and teachers, because I usually create problems (Accidentally, of course. :)) Thinking about all of this, I was certain that I was only just a burden. That sucks, right?

But then, if I never existed, some of my friends would have never met each other. The place would be a lot less livelier, and I would have never inspired so many people. My brothers and sisters would never had an interest of drawing if I hadn't been there. Without me, the people whom I've helped before might not get any help. Even if they did, it'll be late.

And of course, there'll be one less people to love in this world. :D

With this playing on my mind, I smiled thinking that though I might be a burden, I also played a part in people's lives, and that without me, those happy moments might not have occurred. If you are feeling down just like I had, and have this same question in your head, think of what your friends and family would miss without you. Remember, God didn't create us to cause problems.

He gave us life to bring joy into this world. :)