Recently, I have been down in the dumps, feeling guilty of leaving a meeting of friends, planned just to meet me before I go back to boarding school, way too early. I felt sad and paranoid, thinking that someone out there hates me. Since then, whenever I talk or do stuff with them, I feel more left out, ignored, feeling that I shouldn't not be there. I spent all my time, until now, with this one question stuck in my head:
Would it be better if I never existed?
I'm sure someone out there feels the same way too. So, think of it this way. Without me in this world, there would be less fights between my siblings, nor disturbances in the classes. There would be one less person to hate for my friends and teachers, because I usually create problems (Accidentally, of course. :)) Thinking about all of this, I was certain that I was only just a burden. That sucks, right?
But then, if I never existed, some of my friends would have never met each other. The place would be a lot less livelier, and I would have never inspired so many people. My brothers and sisters would never had an interest of drawing if I hadn't been there. Without me, the people whom I've helped before might not get any help. Even if they did, it'll be late.
And of course, there'll be one less people to love in this world. :D
With this playing on my mind, I smiled thinking that though I might be a burden, I also played a part in people's lives, and that without me, those happy moments might not have occurred. If you are feeling down just like I had, and have this same question in your head, think of what your friends and family would miss without you. Remember, God didn't create us to cause problems.
He gave us life to bring joy into this world. :)
